man, it hurts damn bad. i'm talking not only about my shoulder...

can't stand the feeling.. can see but can't go.. it sux. shit

nowitzki

Every time i look at a new blog, it says the same thing.. cuz it's all ppl of this age. so is it that all our age is just a depressed lot most of the time? hope not.. it really isn't that bad. but it's scary.. it's always like tha.. without change.. raging at the world. it's scary. it shouldn't be.

well, there are some things that mean more than face.. friendship for one.. why i went for raffles mile yesterday and made a fool of myself. oh well, haha. watever ok. now, spent the day home.. intended to study more than i did.. slept for a good part in the afternoon.. and idling around the rest of the time.. that's why i think i can't study at home.. hmm. so, cheers to singapore.. 38 liao. ha. ok, and yeah, watching the parade.. realise i respect lee kuan yew a lot. yeah, he rox. and of course, a tribute to the sars workers who got us out of shit earlier this year. a million thanks ain't enough. respect.

Spent most of yesterday playing mahjong at fren's house.. learnt much more, yeah, can play better now.. though still unsure about stuff.. in the end, won a buck in chips.. haha. it was damn fun. before that, had a failed attempt at pool.. nvr mind, don't talk about it.. nothing bad actually. doubt i can make it out today.. so hafta stay home to study.. oh well. gearing up for greater things.. Damn yesterday, should have hung around longer.. damn. and talked. next time i know better.

how come they have kit-kat adverts in mrt stations that say "start your break here".. when eating is not allowed in mrt stations.. funny.. hahaha

kidd

I finally figured out why though i feel hungry, i don't feel like eating.. it's simply cuz i haven't been exercising.. so i don wan to eat.. hmm. think so. oh well, hope to bemoving by next week. but it still hurts. more like stinging pains and spasms. and the constant strains. dunnoe when it'll completely heal.. but can't wait to get back to training.. have to pia.. class outing today was ok.. went ktv-ing.. that part was fun.. quite good actually. until sore throat. fun. would like to do it more, but no time no money.. it's fun. anyway, can't wait to get back to school actually. strange right? sort of looking forward to next week.. reasons reaons... anyway, looking forward to my new studying style.. mugging more that is.. haha. it should work out. very well. God bless. tired, din do anything today. don't see myself doing anything tomorrow. or the day after for that matter. ok, have to.

garnett

Was damn hyper in school today.. change of mood i suppose.. well, at least got break these two days.. can slack, quite cool. Nowadays, i try to study in the library.. it's got a nice studying environment.. for me at least.. Yeah. wow, 6th week already.. tests coming up surely.. have to study more..

wasn't i damn tired just now? hmm, so sitting in front of a computer is easier than being surrounded by notes.. yeah, found something funny, had to share.. so here, before i go sleep.



Dear [name of a boy],

It has come to my attention that you have been selected as a potential
student of ACS(I). We are indeed pleased to welcome you to our big
family.
However, there are a few improvements that have to be made for you to
be
qualified to be one of us.

Firstly, your physical appearance needs alteration. According to our
school's tradition, our attire includes:

1. spiked hair
2. pants worn on the hips
3. almost completely hidden socks
4. shirts not tucked in properly etc.

Furthermore, you must have bushy eyebrows and tan skin to be eligible.
Thus,
we would appeal that you make this changes ASAP.

Secondly, other than outward appearance, what goes on inside is crucial
as
well. We adhere struictly to our 3 acts: Act Cool, Act Attitude and Act
Poser, stressing on poser-ism as the basis of our image.

Act cool: All ACSI students are required to be adept in pretending to
be
cool in the way bimbos will fall for the trick, even though it is
obviously
not the proper definition of "cool". We do not want our students to be
cool
but to ACT cool. This will include mannerisms like acting nonchalant
and
pompous that will create the false impression that ACSI guys are indeed
very
desirable and good looking.

Act attitude: Due to the fact that bimbos absolutely love attitudal
guys, we
emphasise strongly on pretending to have attitude in our boys. You will
hence have to act like a very bad person when you are in fact an
insecure
and deprived person.

Act poser: AS this is the trademark of our school, it will require no
further explanation.

To adhere to our school's motto "The best is yet to be", we require you
to
stop getting good results in school especially in the area of
literature, as
this opposes our motto. You will hence need to go out more with bimbos,
have
fun, screw around and be less concerned with your studies.

Your Chinese grades need to be extremely poor and you will have to hate
it a
lot. In other words, you must forget all your roots and be a perfect
banana.
You are also required to be rich to avoid being ostracised and looked
down
upon in our school. More emphasis will also be put on sports to create
the
false impression that ACSI guys are all rounders.

We look forward to your joining our huge ACS family and we certainly do
believe you have the potential, judging by your bimbo attracting
qualities
prevalent in all our students. We believe that with more posing,
despising
Chinese and acting, you can definitely be an outstanding representation
of
ACSI.

yours sincerely,
Ong Teck Chin
Principal
Anglo Chinese School (Independent)

Who do i live for? Do what others think matter? Should they matter? Is there a need to give a shit at all? Is there an end to everything? When will i feel complete? I know it's kinda hard now, but definitely looks better now. still, lotsa things to work on.

Shoulder feels strained, the same way it feels when i hold something heavy or for long.. only that it's this constant strain.. hope it's only muscle pain.. anyway, can't wait to play again.. will have to restrain myself.. lesson learnt. wow, today was a flash.. the day flew by really fast.. woa. hope tomorrow improves. can one lah.. looking forward to the kinda long but irregular break coming up.. but it's hard, i don't know how to open my mouth. know what i mean..

was really tired. planned to do some work, but was asleep most of the time just now when i was supposed to do work. hmm. better get it right soon. tests coming up too, can't afford to screw up.. not so close to promos.. ok, can't screw around anymore.

Damn, am i confused... what? how? i really don't know. move on? sweep up the dust left behind? hang around? wait and see? i really don't know. guess i could pick a choice and hope it turns out great. Yeah, seems like i don have much choice yah.. it's nobody's fault i guess.. just the way it is. maybe i shouldn't hang on to the shreds of the past, so that i won't be caught in this.. well, i can't put it down.. not yet. but i would like a move on too.. so yah. start out confused, end up the same way.

funny.

going in a diferent direction now...

cps down 40-44 to engine in ifg final.. me: "can one"... "cannot lah"... me "can one"... "cannot lah".. she's damn cute.

Gabriel pang is damn good. The best guard i've seen. skills wise at least.. no one comes close. and of course style and coolness he's way up there too.. the way he plays is just simply breath-taking.. at gryphons cup 3-on-3 he was entertaining the crowd with his efortless shots and dribbling.. and guess wat, the best thing is that he'll be joining us next year. rox. then our ability will increase by twice man.. yes, he's that good. maybe even better than that.. always knew he was zhai, but quite long nvr seen him, so was just amazed on sunday.. so, psyched up now to be on par.. basketball is essentially still a team sport.. one guy can seldom carry the team.. so support is always needed.. will train damn hard after i can play.. watched the seniors at gryphons cup, saw what a long way more i have to go.. yes, must train hard. will. jia1 you2! and that day had a great match as well, one of the best i've seen, maybe the second best.. ri95 vs noah's batch.. was fiery at times, but great basketball on show.. pity the turnout is getting worse eah year.. still remember not too long ago, the atmosphere was damn good. got bbq also.. then this year catered food, not enough some more. sheesh. and one thing i'm not happy about is that i'm not close to my batch mates in ri bball. damn sad. someting i would like to change given the chance.. it's impossible now lah.. sigh. today had screwed-up IFG basketball.. notice med fac doesn't even bother announcing anything.. no one gives a shit about bball. piss me off. so med fac got last place.. sheesh, screw it lah.. was damn scerwed up anyway.. and rj so suck.. no lights at all. so played until couldn't see anymore.. hmm. damn crappy. yeah, guess rj's falling apart.

Shoulder feels better.. but stll feels strained sometimes. will be better in a week i think.. even then, will have to protect myself.. yeah, once is more than enough. so, looking forward to bball which is sort of my life now.. can't wait to get back on court and get that touch back.. it'll take some time, so i can't get frustrated.. maybe at first the shots won't sink and i don dare do stuff but things will improve. yeah, once my shoulder fully heals. yeah.

At ghim moh having lunch.. with class. damn funny. ming chuan goes off to buy dessert, then we started bitching about him.. so samantha was like saying we should stop.. zheng xian:"later ming chuan come back, we tell him samantha likes him.. see what he says" donald:"he's confirm say' i'm sure lor'".. so when he came back with his dessert(forgot what it was), zhengxian"Just now samantha said she like you" Ming chuan" i'm.. i'm sure lor!" Hahaha. left all of us rolling around in laughter.. as in really. aiyah, this's a class thing so most ppl prob won't get it.. but it's damn freaking funny to us lor.. couldn't stop laughing.. haha. damn good. and this ming chuan is the guy who pronounces "allele" as "ah-leh-leh".. that's cuz he din take bio in sec sch.. but still it was funny. Now he's known as "ah-leh-leh" in class, and keeps getting guai-lan about it.. ha.

Whoa, long post. Maybe it's coz i'm kinda high now.. yeah. going well. i pray for more opportunities.